What Is Life?

Life is full of mysteries & hopes
One needs to explore it to know
It plays little games with us
Be it “hide and seek” or just “scramble”
We don't seem to enjoy simple pleasure of life
We run after things which die after some time
When we realize it its too late, that’s the point
When life just don't want to play
All of us know this is true but we prefer to loose
We push everything on tomorrow
And for us tomorrow never comes
Wonder why this happens with everyone?
Not a single person seems to differ!
May be this is human mind, who wants to control life
Or may be its just us who wants to rule the world
But in this whole thing we tend to forget
That when life gets upset we have to say "Farewell"
Let’s not bring that moment nearer, let’s not forget to live
Let’s give life her fair chance, before we come too far

ABSTRACT THOUGHT

It’s been sometime now that I have penned down anything for blog. Its not that nothing happened between my last post till today. But then I guess laziness spread all over my mind like a disease and recovering took little longer (home remedy is always slower compared to doctor’s prescription which comes with label ;-)). Enough of my sick and pathetic jokes otherwise you all will block my blog. I visited Switzerland in early April thought of writing down my experience but then that thought didn’t excite me much so with time it got erased from my mind. And after coming back my work didn’t leave my mind for good 10 hours. When the feeling of neglecting my blog started developing in my heart I thought of giving due respect to blogging and started to think on one topic which is kindda disturbing me from last couple of days.

Why for us others opinion matters so much?

Well this might not be true to some bunch of people but unfortunately percentage of this kind of people is negligible. Even for me sometime people opinion matters and sometimes I help myself not to think about them. Well the point is we all at one particular point in our life give people opportunity to affect us. Why it happens and when it happens is something which I failed to understand. We know what we want and what we are doing but still I think there is a room for doubt and people take advantage of that. Sometimes they hit you on something which you feared to touch even in your dreams. Lot of moments passed in my life where people affected me.
And I am not afraid to say that. Sometimes damage was too brutal and I had to take some time to gather my lost courage and above all myself. I have learnt from those instances and now I think I have outgrown those things and yes peoples comment don't affect me the way they use to do sometimes (still sometimes I think about them and for couple of sec it affects me). I have put label on my forehead 'I DON'T CARE'. One thing I must admit that those comments help me to think more on anything before acting. Someway or other while affecting me they nurtured my thought process and I am really thankful to them. They taught me to build bridge between my thoughts and my fears. I know now that fear of touching my fear is slowly disappearing from my life. But this is to look at brighter side of issue. But what if I had never come out of those comments? What if I have never gathered courage to face them? What if I was pull down and down and down in depression? Thankfully nothing like this happened to me but then it can happen to others. I don't know what the solution is for this and I am not able to find one. I don't think everyone can ignore the comments. Very few people come with don’t care attitude (and I wish I was one of them).

This piece of writing of mine is different from my usual writings (at least I think so) and it doesn't have any verdict or conclusion because I myself have no answer for this stuff. I guess Fear, Doubts are directly proportional to affect left by People. The more you have doubts and fear in your act the deeper you will get affected by comments made by people. So I think the best thing for anyone (especially people who don't have 'DON'T CARE' attitude and get easily affected by people/society) is to overcome their fears and doubts before they take any step further in making of their future.

WEATHER

Weather what does it mean to us Indians?
Nothing maybe

Weather what does it mean to British?
WORLD !!!!

Yup you read it right WORLD. Can you imagine weather is world for some people (you can include me also in that officially NOW)

Here people's mood depends upon weather. How freaky and funny it sounds. Coming from a country where weather is not very important thing to talk about I always
found it difficult to join the conversation where people are displaying their knowledge on Weather (now I can understand how traffic can be a topic of conversation since I made Mumbai as my second home from past 10 years). But as months passed by, I myself realized the importance of weather in this country. Now I can jump into any talks related to weather without fear of getting kicked ;-) (and believe me I myself open weather topic) My everyday routine changed as days passed. 6 months back I use to logon and use to start my daily work (like a sincere employee now you all know what lies beneath that statement ;-)) with obviously checking mails. Now the first thing I do after logging is open www.weather.co.uk Hahahahaha I myself find it very funny but you can't get out without even thinking about weather. When people join us from India we greet then with a big smile (isn’t it obvious) and with 'Welcome back to seeing weather everyday'

It is really amazing (and sometime really frustrating) to see weather here. In a day you can witness all four seasons (u don't believe it? trust me even I didn't trust my own eyes at the start). Morning will offer you bright and little sun (that’s an illusion I realized it later) same day afternoon will pour rain and darkness on you and evening with its full grace will shower white cotton balls (which we all say snow). I have survived here in winter which is dull, depressing (why depressing??? won't you feel depress when it starts getting darker at 4:00 and at 5:30 pm it feels like 7:00 pm) nothing compared to Mumbai :-(. In these 6 months I have hardly seen SUN (Ohhh I so much love him now) and you can't believe how desperately I am waiting for summer and temperature to roar up to 30 degree and more. Have you ever seen a small boy waiting for clock to turn 12 on Christmas night? Well I can match my feeling to that. And the joy you can see on his face after opening his X'mas gift will match to my joy after seeing sun and temperature as 32 degree. I never realized how much I Love SUN but now I am getting desperate to have a glimpse (no glimpse won’t be enough I need him for full 8 hours now) of him.

RAIN RAIN GO AWAY
LET ME MAKE PLAN
FOR BRIGHT AND SUNNY DAYS
WINTER YOU WERE WONDERFUL
AND I LOVED YOU
BUT NOW IT'S TIME FOR SUN TO SHINE TOO

(Can’t trust myself that I jot down stupid lines on weather)

UNHEALTHY COMPETITION

Hey guys you will get something different here from now onwards. I mean I have decided that I will scribble something which I have gone through the day or week or month or hour or sec…..
In short something I found interesting enough to give my precious attention to ;-) which might be very different from my previous blogs or might be concluding on same node.

I work in so called “IT” Industry. I know the first thing which might have popped up in your mind like an irritating popup window for ad is “Money”. Lot of people outside IT industry think we get paid a lot (trust me I am underpaid) but they totally ignore the fact that we put more than 8 hours in our job. Everyone in this industry at one point spends 10-12 hours a day. Newaz that’s not the point (was just trying to see if non IT people can change their views).

My today’s blog will deal with politics or dirty games which are played in offices. Can you name a single industry where games are not played? Common one industry try it might not be very difficult for sure (but it is for me. I spend 24 hours thinking on this). No. Can’t think of any? (Join my club). Fact is office politics is being played everywhere be it central services, banking, manufacturing, glamour or IT. I have experienced similar stuff in my industry. I don’t understand why people don’t play healthy game (which means healthy competition). Every person is waiting for opportunity to pull their colleagues from climbing up not by giving competition but playing sick games. And now things changed so much that these people have guts to say in your face.

Read my experience with such person (might be interesting) but before that let me tell you what has happened. Me and my colleague are on client side (always remember all IT companies have their client outside India) working on different things totally un-related except that technology is same. Now client decided to retain me (after seeing my work) and asked him to go back (not coz of his work its better to clear that stuff) since client is going through lot of financial problems and decided to do cost cutting (what an excuse!! Must tell these clients act weird one more disadvantage of working in IT industry is you and your company are puppets in their hands – hey non IT guys hope you listening coz I said it loud enough). Since I was working on critical project they thought of retaining me. So here goes the conversation

Anonymous (really don’t want to name him after all we work in same industry and he might not believe in healthy competition but I do):- Hey you must be aware of
Me:- What?
Anonymous: - I am going back after 2 weeks
Me (in shock coz he was supposed to be here on long term and was working good I believe):- what you saying!!!! Why?
Anonymous: - well manager told me about this even I am in little shock
Well the conversation began and we came to this point
Anonymous: - You are Sagittarius right? Yeah you must be we came to your place for dinner on your b’day which was in dec
Me:- yup
Anonymous: - what are typical Sagittarian traits?
Me:- I don’t believe in all this so I have no idea.
Anonymous: - Well I guess they are very good in impressing their bosses…..
Me smiling coz I knew what is going to come next
Anonymous promptly added: - but not their colleagues.
I was just smiling coz I really didn’t want to discuss this with someone who thinks that I am not good enough to stay (and I think he must have thought that I did lot of chamchagiri) and I let him continue. He blabbered lot of stuff some personal some tricky and I showed that I am paying attention (I am good actress ;-))

When I thought about this incidence I felt sorry for him. I think it’s his loss if he makes himself think this way coz it’s not going to take him long. But I wonder do these people go far in their career and even if they reach top level do they have guts to survive? I believe in my work and I must admit I work in certain way plus I am pretty process oriented and particular. I do admit that I don’t change my views on things very easily and that might be taken in negative sense but my point is you prove that I am wrong and I am your slave else you don’t have any rights to tell me I am wrong (can you find anything wrong in my thinking?) I never let these games bother me or disturb me but yes I thought that this will be worth giving a thought. One of my friend told me I will come across lot of people like this in my life and I agree with him.

You guys must be waiting for my verdict. Right? Well initially I thought I won’t give any on this one but now I feel like giving one (obviously it feels good when you have importance and power ;-)) so here you go…

My Verdict on people who play unhealthy game: -IGNORE THEM. THEY ARE NOT WORTH ANYTHING AND FOR SURE NOT YOUR THOUGHTS……. ALWAYS REMEMBER HARD AND GOOD WORK NEVER GETS WASTED.

Decision & Support

Need to decide on everything
So as to move forward in the lot
Everyone echoes these thoughts
And seamlessly forget to reveal the dark.
To decide is not effortless
It needs hard thoughts and judgments.
One makes mistakes and makes life complicated
Once broken it’s not easy to mend!!
And when the question is about decision then one can’t be careless
It’s true that you learn from mistakes
But are you going to support me during my messy days?
When I will need that one hand to take me out from my decision
Will you be there waiting to lend your shoulders?
Don’t turn back and just go away
When someone needs you then just be selfless
Decisions, mistakes, troubles and bitter days
These all are co-related .
When I can’t get out of my whirlpool
That’s the time when my eyes will look for you
Seeing you discontented will fill me with sorrow
And then my decision will reflect your support
I can’t travel far without any support is it not true for you also?

So very true

See how much two lines can mean...

Sapne bechnae aaye ho magar dekh to lo
Sapne bechnae aaye ho magar dekh to lo
Duniya kay bazar main inkee kimat kya hain

(Sorry people who don't understand hindi i can't translate it for you)

If you think you are alone
Surrounding with all melancholy and dejection
Then cheer up a bit
As there are few others delimited with this.
Life is playing its part
Sharing with you bright and gloomy art
It’s up to you how you choose to exist.
You can be down in blues
Or can play in bliss.
How you choose is up to you
No one will come to your rescue.
This is your life and you have only one
So be careful while choosing your route
Coz it will decide your life all the way through.